Insecure Butterfly

She saw what she always wanted
but chose to keep her hand away
For she feared the hiding shadows
that put misfortune in her way

Would leap out from their hideout
and sabotage what little she had
For they thought her undeserving
of the cheerfulness she grabbed.

One step away from a perfect
and peaceful life she could have-
Sat at the bottom of the deep well
where she could hear mockery and laughs.

Did all of this for what,
just the security of her smile?
But has she noticed at all
that it has been a long while?

Eons since she was carefree,
Ages since sat without a frown;
Winters falling over her and
making her deep under the snow drown.

Clouds of worries float over
and down with weight are her shoulders;
She knows that they don't exist
but compulsively shoves the boulders.

Needs one chance at being normal
an opportunity to draw a breath-
To let the butterfly flutter her wings
away from the burden they were beneath.

How that happens she doesn't now
while she tries her best to
not think of her caterpillar days 
and just find a way to get through

This arduous journey they call life
that crushes one from within.
Because this can't be the worst she says 
if she's survived through thick and thin
                                                                           -Chinmayee Kulkarni